Everyone Knowing

Pretty much everyone around me knows we are trying. They know how desperately I want kids (or they at least think they do). But sometimes I wish no one knew because it makes me self conscious. I feel people looking at me and thinking "is she now?"

I'm not a skinny person and most of my overweight-ness is in my stomach area. Since college I've be randomly asked when I'm due. This coupled with the fact of how much I want a baby hurts dramatically. Now that we're trying I feel people looking at my stomach more. So besides being depressed over TTC I'm more self-conscious.

This whole situation is not doing much for me emotionally.