Friday, January 28, 2011
1. Had a great time finding new blogs this week with ICLW. I might be delayed in some commenting but plan to catch up in the morning.
2. Hit 100 posts! I know it is silly but I’m proud that I have stuck with this blogging thing.
3. I’m finishing up a Tupperware Catalog party so now I get to pick out the stuff I want!
4. Get to go to a concert this weekend with my Mom. She is one of my best friends and we hardly ever get just me and her time.
5. I think my job interview went well. I’m pretty sure I will not get the position based on who else applied but I felt good about getting to try. I am hoping this opens up a few doors for some other things
6. My hubby and I have decided to go to Florida for our anniversary this year so I’m having fun planning a few little activates for us.
7. Today is CD24 and I think I might actually have a few symptoms. However I’m not sure when OV was so I could just be crazy. Until proven otherwise I’ll just be hopeful.
8. It was a great day at work today. Was invited out to lunch with a few people, everyone was in a good mood and the weather was nice.
I hope each of you can find a nice thing or two to be happy about today. Feel free to share here!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
And I just noticed this is my 100th post!
Since I ended up with both of these I’ll do a few more than 7 little tidbits -
1. I am not a big ‘outside’ kind of person. When I was younger my Dad use to say I ran and hid anytime an activity involved being outside. Honestly its that that I do not like being hot and have suffered from allergies all my life.
2. With that being said I love decorating with Trees. I have pictures of trees, an odd tree log statue thing (no idea what to call it), cherry blossom branches and even a huge tree mural in my living room painted by my best friend.
3. I love Internet shopping and finding great deals. I have a lot of websites that I check out each day for daily deals.
4. In addition to deals, I also love originally things so I adore Etsy. A few of my favorite shops include ones like:
6. I already know how I will decorate a baby’s room once we get to that point. (you can probably guess) I came across this artist a few years ago while visiting Asheville, NC and fell in love. So one day we will have a tree mural like this one here or here.
8. I am a TV addict! Reality, vampires, kid shows, new shows, blue shows, old shows :)
9. I love reading even more than TV. About a year and half ago I started a book club and it is one of the best things I get to do each month.
10. I had a job interview today (wish me luck!)
11. I love most anything Disney. When I was younger I collected Sleeping Beauty items including a few snow globes and marketing items.
12. I have a history of twins from both sides of my family. Sometimes I secretly hope that we’ll end up with twins and other days it just terrifies me.
Posted by Lindsay at 4:59 PM
Monday, January 24, 2011
IComLeavWe: Join the Conversation
I came across something to make me stop. One blog mentioned an article (here) on Self.com. It is a short one but left me in tears.
First I'll say that I am not judging this couple what so ever. Their story left me sad and like I said, in tears. To a point I can understand wanting to keep quite and not having to answer questions that might be hurtful or too pushy but I just hurt for them that they have to go out of town to hide this. I know there are so many women out there that do hide their IF issues but I have not heard a story like this.
Some days I find it really hard to cope with IF. I feel imaginary eyes on me questioning what our problem might be or just judging us. But other days I need other people to understand, I need to have a a bit of compassion. I need to have my blog to turn to and to know I am not the only one out there. I can not imagine not talking to my own Mom or best friend about this. I am a very open person and even if I had thought to from the start I do not know if I could go through this alone and quietly.
Have any of you kept quite? Have or are you hiding your struggle from your family and friends? If so have you opened up now or do you plan to? If you have not told them, what do you wish you could?
Posted by Lindsay at 4:29 PM
Saturday, January 22, 2011
If I have not found you yet or are not following you already please let me know so I can come check out your space. I have really enjoyed getting to know all my bloggie friends so far and learning more about all of you.
Posted by Lindsay at 12:38 PM
Friday, January 21, 2011
If your new you can see our history timeline along this side --------->
Our current status is kind of unknown. We are technically trying but I am not charting or POS this month. We are hopeful that a recent Veraicoclele Repair was successful but it is too soon to tell. Our chances were 2-3% before surgery and hopefully it is a bit higher than that now. So if you are stopping by and like to share positive vibes - they are most welcome! I love my followers and do my best to keep up with all you.
I've been a little slack the last few weeks but each Friday I try to stop regardless of my mood or outside influences and consider some positive things that I can be thankful for. I like to share these and encourage all who stop by to do the same. You can leave me a comment with something positive you came up with or even better have your own positive post.
So here are mine. Most are pretty small and silly but add them together and it makes for a good day. It is nice to start off the weekend with a good attitude. -
1. If you read my last post you might have noticed the week did not start of with the best of news. The positive part is that my hubby is feeling better, we have talked it out and a new surgery is scheduled.
2. We got a lovely bit of snow overnight so we woke up to a very nice morning view.
3. The roads were bad on the way into work and even through I had a few sliding spells we made it to work safe and sound. Even better the sun it out now and if melting away the ice now so the drive home will be a lot better.
4. They posted a new position at work that is a step up and I've applied. Even if I do not get it this is great because it opens up just one more door for advancement later on.
5. We have scheduled our first vacation of the year for next month and we can not wait!
6. The Sampler Village put the January boxes on sale this month and I have already ordered mine. They are boxes of homemade items that sold so you can try out new stuff. I just love getting these in the mail.
7. I love ICLW week so I'm excited it started today. Now I have all weekend to find new blogs and get to know new stories.
Happy Friday Everyone!
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
He is mad. Now I'm stuck at work and can not talk to him about it. I just want to cry.
Posted by Lindsay at 9:49 AM
Monday, January 17, 2011
Today is the start to a new week and I’m in a good mood. I’m listing to Michael Buble and its just making me smile. Before I go on with all the gory details I'll start off by saying the SHG went well and my tubes are clear. Hooray! (there is a dance involved you just can’t see it but feel free to picture me being ridiculous)
I left work early to go to my appointment Thursday and did not realize how nervous I was until I was putting on my coat and noticed my heart was racing. Honestly I think a good part of it was the fact the office was downtown. I absolutely hate driving somewhere I am not familiar with and hate it even more so when it is downtown. But I sucked it up got there and luckily they had a free parking lot. Once inside I was taken back very quickly and had a very nice nurse. I did find it pretty funny that she was instant messaging someone while I was getting situated on the table. So she started out with an internal ‘probe’ scan. She used the ‘wand’ to measure all size and volume of my uterus and both ovaries. That part was really quite easy and fast. I do not know what I was expecting but then she told me she would go get the doctor. This doctor was a man (never had a man doc before) and he was foreign (no idea where from). He looked like a mix between Santa and the Russian spy from the TV show Archer on FX (a very funny show if you like that kind of humor).
Anyways doctor comes in - I only understand about 50% of what he is saying – and he shows me this itty bitty tube thing they will be using. When you push up on it it is like a little air bubble expands to create a small circular mass on the tube about the size of a small grape. My assumption, that is about as big as it gets and that is not too scary at all. So he does a little iodine swiping and they start to insert the tube thing. All is well, I’m just fine, I can see a picture of my uterus up on the wall TV for my viewing pleasure. Then the nurse proceeds to tell me I will have a bit of cramping which I expected because of my research and a few of you mentioned it. I did not however expect it to be like that. She tells me it is like expanding my uterus from flat and empty to six months pregnant in the matter of seconds. Now I really think I have a higher pain tolerance than some but this was too quick and shocking - I jerked so hard on that table I scared the nurse and gave myself a crick in my neck. After what felt like forever my cramping lessened and it got much better. They used the probe again so I could see the uterus pictures as they checked everything out. When it came to my tubes I could actually see the fluid moving through them. This was such a nice sign and created a great bit of relief.
He told me everything looked pretty good but I did have something small hanging out in the middle of my uterus. He said it was either a small polyp or a cluster of blood cells. Blood cells would be just fine and they would eventually flush out on their own. However a polyp might be a bit more troublesome because it could create attaching issues when we do have a successful cycle. Pretty much if the egg attaches to it instead of the lining then the pregnancy would result in miscarriage. He did not provide any statistics but said they would send the pictures to my Doc and she would decide how to proceed. I think I was just glad to hear I had open tubes so the fear of this possibility did not stress me out too much.
Friday afternoon I called my Doc and talked to one of my Nurses. She said it was indeed a polyp but my Doc said there was nothing to do about it and not to worry. I was a bit concerned because at first she said the polyp was on an ovary. I questioned the location and she reread the paperwork to see it was in the uterus. I tried to ask if this would change what my Doc would suggest and told her what the ultrasound doctor said and she did not seem interested. This was the first time I have spoken with this nurse and honestly I did not like her as much as the one I normally talk to. For now I am going to try and not be concerned with this very small maybe.
In trying not to worry I have only done a very little bit of research on polyps but found the following -
Whether uterine polyps lead to infertility remains controversial. However, if you have uterine polyps and you've been experiencing infertility, removal of the polyps might boost your fertility. In one study, infertile women who underwent surgical polyp removal (hysteroscopic polypectomy) had much higher pregnancy rates — 63 percent versus 28 percent — after intrauterine insemination (IUI) than did women with uterine polyps who underwent IUI alone
If guess I will look into it more if we end up having to go the IUI route. For now I’m just going to do some hoping and praying.
Tomorrow the hubby has a follow up appointment with the urologist.
Posted by Lindsay at 4:15 PM
Saturday, January 15, 2011
My husband and I ran in to Walmart (aka China town) today to pick up a few little things. We were finishing up and forgot something so we backtracked to get it. While walking up to check out we ran into a girl we use to know. She was not a person we saw a lot but was just the ex-girlfriend of a mutual friend. It has been about two years since we last saw her and in that time she got married and had a child. When I had originally heard she was pregnant it stung a bit but did not affect me too much. But today it nearly brought me to tears. She is younger than me and has a beautiful little girl. Her eyes were blue as could be and all I could do was stare. Here is this girl that has what I've wanted for years and she just happened to get knocked up while planning her wedding. It has been a few hours now and I feel a bit better but it took a while for me to clear my mind enough to keep from wanting to cry.
On another annoying note - has anyone noticed how many freaking celebrities have announced pregnancies this last week or so?
and as I'm freaking writing this darn blog I see a new announcement about Alicia Silverstone
If this year is as active as the first few weeks of January then this is going to be one big annoying year!
Posted by Lindsay at 6:08 PM
Thursday, January 13, 2011
SHG is today.
My sister has been diagnosed with endometriosis and will have to have surgery in a few months.
We've had some nice snow here the last few days and it has been really pretty.
Got to hang out with my Mom over the weekend and it was nice to have just me and her time talking about all kinds of stuff. It is probably the first time I've got to talk to her about our stuff and it not getting me upset or feeling like I need to shut down.
How awful is it that I'm happy that a TV show is possibly going to have infertility issues come up soon? One of the sister's from Parenthood has been TTC and last week she talked about how she has been the last few months, first getting excited and hopeful only to be let down.
Posted by Lindsay at 2:00 PM
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Posted by Lindsay at 10:00 PM
Thursday, January 6, 2011
AF finally showed up. I had a feeling it would and held out testing again. The good news about it showing up is that I got to call today and schedule my ladies part test. I had my test information incorrect. I thought I was scheduling an HSG and apparently I’m getting an SHG instead. I'll have to research the difference but I think the SHG sounds a little easier.
On another good note - I finally got all the right information and confirmed with my insurance that they will cover the test. Apparently we have a family planning section of our policy that covers testing and diagnosis. However the plan does not include anything else beyond that. So hopefully the hubby’s stuff will improve and they do not find any issues on my end. My test is a week from today and I’m keeping my fingers crossed that no issues are found.
Posted by Lindsay at 5:01 PM
Monday, January 3, 2011
In the mean time, I finally talked to my Doc about our male infertility issues and asked if there was anything I could do testing while we wait for him to heal. She said she would be happy to send me for a HSG just to check all the tubes and such. I’m trying to find out if our insurance will cover any of it before scheduling it. If not then it will just have to wait a while. Keeping fingers crossed.
Posted by Lindsay at 4:34 PM