Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Still Here

I am still around just a bit more quite lately. I'm checking in every now and then to see whats up but I've missed a lot. Hopefully not anyone's good news! I have started numerous times to write a new post but found that I did not have much to say so I just waited.

Today is CD 31 of a cycle I did not watch or chart at all and am just waiting now for AF to show up. While it would be just lovely to have a crazy surprise I'm not expecting anything. And you know what? That is ok. We have some things to look forward to and so this month not being successful will not be the end of the world.

Since I last checked in not much has changed really. We are going on vacation soon and once we get back we are going to start planning and saving for that very first IUI.

After the crazy two weeks trying to get our SA results I had a bit of a breakdown. It was an emotional end of a rough couple of weeks and I got to my breaking point. I was angry one second and crying the next. So I decided that was not cool and I was going to do something about it. What I expected to be an awkward doctor's appointment turned into a really nice outlet and releasing of stress. It turns out my doctor was off that day and the normal back up was too and they had in a lady from another office. She walked in the room and I started bawling. And then she told me her story and how much she understood what I was going through. Her are her husband tried for nine years before having a child and she reassured me that having a bit of help was ok and for some people its silly not to.

So now I've got happy pills and they seem to have helped. I'm a bit more mellow when it comes to those mood swings and I am not crying at the drop of every hat. Its nice but seems to had led to a bit of a dry spell on the blog front.

Well I guess that is all for now. I've missed checking in with you ladies everyday and hope to get back to it soon.


  1. I was just thinking about you this morning. Glad you're doing ok now and the happy pills are working their magic. Sometimes we just need a bit of help to set our head in the right place. :-) Funny you're like me. I tend to blog when I'm upset. The rest of the time I don't have much to say. If I'm not blogging I'm either fine or I've got an outlet elsewhere. Anyway, don't be too much of a stranger!

  2. My husband needs those happy pills every once in a while and I encourage him to take them when he needs them. Glad to hear you're doing better with their help too. Hope you have a good vacation!

  3. I was just thinking of you and wondering! I'm glad you're doing better. Hoping you do get a surprise this time, but if not, I'm very excited for your IUI. Hugs

  4. Great to hear from you. Sorry to hear that things haven't been so hot lately. I'm glad you've sought help...like the doctor says it is silly not to do so. I know what you mean about not having much to say...I'm there too...I sometimes feel like a broken record because after this long things don't change much from cycle to cycle. All the best saving for the IUI my girl. Thinking of you alwaysxx