Timing and New Things

It has been too long since my last update. I am so behind on every one's story and I really hope I have some great news to read up while catching up.

First bit of update - things are still pretty much the same (sigh!!!). I have been hiding in a hole and ignoring the situation. I have come to decide that I am hiding from the fear. After our last really long cycle I have done everything I can to not think about our situation. I am terrified to have another let down month. But this week I broke through and made a step forward. Called up the doc and made an appointment for my annual. While there I will be able to schedule our very first IUI. So April might not be our month to try but we will be getting it scheduled. Now that it is planned, I am actually getting excited for the first time in quite a while.

Second bit of update - I took a personal step for me. I signed up to be a consultant for a Thirty-One Gifts. I went to a party at a friends house and love their products.  So now the plan is to host parties and work my butt off to make a bit of money. All funds will go to our baby making funds. I hope to earn enough to pay for half of our IUI by the time it is here. In the mean time, I'll hopefully meet a few new ladies. One of the major things about Thirty-One parties is to tell people your Why. I have decided to be completely frank and honest when telling them about my Why. I hope that sharing my story I can reach out and connect and/or touch others that are around that have this struggle. I know that I will be opening up myself to judgement and possible questions from some that do not understand or agree with medically helped conception but I am willing to face this. I want to touch others and reach out more, I want to not feel alone.

Please feel free to check it all out and I would love if you would like and share my Facebook page. Hopefully I can make this work out for me and help us along our way :D

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Kiss my butt kind of Friday

Normally I try to avoid having a bitchy post on Friday’s but this morning a co worker really ticked me off.

We have bad storms coming in the area today. We knew they were coming in yesterday; the news reminded us this morning on before work. However most normal people went into work today and sent their kids to school. Unfortunately we are not able to stop everything for the weather. With that said, I do understand the fear of storms and the capacity of damage of they bring. Fear of Mother Nature is natural and smart. Respect it and your better off.

So a little while ago schools in our area announced they were closing early so for the pending storms. I have a quite a few ladies around me in the office that have children, so when I saw a posting about the closings I said it out loud for those around. The news had spread fast so it was no a surprise but my co worker that sits with me (a young-unmarried male) kidded around and said “oh then I have to leave to go get my kid”. I laughed and told him to shut up, we all know he doesn’t have kids. And it was a joke. No harm meant and the joke was just for me…..

Well another co-worker practically flew off the handle about how it was not a joke and how having kids is a responsibility and a big deal. That having to care about someone other than yourself was hard and needed to be understood. Pretty much trying to school us on the fact that we should not laugh about it and were stupid for not understanding. Then light hearted said something about taking care of her kids because they were her spawn, even if they were the spawn of the devil.

Ok, first of all, it was a flipping joke. It was not said to her or meant for her. We are not dense enough to think a bad storm coming is not a valid worry; the damn joke was based on the fact that he did have kids and tries to leave work whenever possible. It is a Friday, I would be happy to leave early too! I really just wanted to tell her to go to hell. Your ability to spawn (seriously, her word) does not give you the right to be a bitch. Does not mean you get to be rude to the others around you. There are plenty of things about her and her life I could touch upon that tick me off, but I won’t get into it b/c it is not important, but I’ll say that being ‘fussed’ at by her really pissed me off.

I’m done now, just needed to get that out.