Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Keeping the Door Open with all Possibilities

CD 1

Well I think its time to call it. I had spotting and a negative test yesterday and today AF if rolling in. I am a little sad - I really did have a lot of hope this cycle. I was feeling good, thought I had symptoms and had probably the best positive attitude I've had this whole year.


But alas all is not lost. That is just one month down and we can try again this month. Part of my optimism right not is being funneled through some different kind of outlets. I know there are a lot of things people believe in. Some people turn to religion, some to a more naturalistic approach, some believe in everything. I guess I would say I'm more around the last part. I have a rocky belief system right now (and have for years) when it comes to religion but I still believe. I still have faith. I also believe you can look elsewhere for advice, understanding or just plain hope.


A good friend of mine has the ability see Auras and I fully believe she can. This isn't something she broadcasts but so sweetly shared this with me a year or so ago. The first time she 'saw' my colors I was a purple with a green block. She told me she saw clear tubes but was not sure what the blockage was. At the time we did not know about the hubby's varicocele.


Well last week I asked her to 'read' me again (first time since the surgery) and she said i was Orange - ORANGE AURA COLOR: Relates to reproductive organs and emotions. The color of vitality, vigor, good health and excitement. Lots of energy and stamina, creative, productive, adventurous, courageous, outgoing social nature; currently experiencing stress related to appetites and addictions.


This gave me a nice little boast to get through the last few days of my 2WW. Not only was there no longer a block but orange relates to reproductive organs! I must say I felt very fertile this cycle. I think that 10mg of Clomid really bumped things up. Also, a few weeks ago I was in a low spot and figured just for the heck of it I would get a baby reading. I had seen a link to Cheri's site before but had not gone as far ask for a reading. Well that day I did and my reading finished this weekend.


Here is a little bit of it - They show a Girl and they relate her to APRIL so this is either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in. They are showing me something linked to the 16-23, so not sure if you can look ahead and see if this would be linked to either your testing or ovulation?


There were a lot more details she included but this was the main part I was looking for. So April is not over yet and I'm not counting it out. Maybe, just maybe I'll get myself knocked up this month!

10 comments:

  1. I'm sorry that Af came. I'm CD 2 so we are almost on the same cycle. I'm sending positive thoughts your way that this will be the month for you.

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  2. Sorry to hear about AF visiting. It's hard to keep your hopes up when the same thing keeps happening again and again. Sounds like you have a positive frame of mind though.

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  3. Hi - I came across your page! My husband and I also suffer from SEVERE MFI and he has a varicocele. He hasn't had his repaired (yet), but the RE said our chance is pretty much only IVF... Sooo that is what we are about to try! Good luck and I look forward to following you to your BFP! :)

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  4. such a bummer on CD1 :( I am so sorry. So interesting on your Cheri reading!! I have fingers crossed for you! I will have my reading from her on the 17th! Good luck this month!!!

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  5. You have such a great attitude, Lindsay! I'm glad to see you feeling so positive. I'm hoping this is the month for you! Sending great thoughts your way!

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  7. Am sorry AF arrived but am glad you're in a good space right now. Your reading intrigued me! I wish I was brave enough to take the plunge and have one done myself.
    Take care xxx

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  8. :-( Aww no, I'm sorry about AF. You have such a good attitude, and I wish you the best for your new cycle!

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  9. Sorry that AF showed up. That stuff about your aura is really cool. I've been tempted to get my palm read or call a renowned psychic on the radio. However, I have always chickened out. I am afraid they won't see a child of my own in my future. It might sound silly but that's the truth. April could also be a name, maybe? Just something else to think about. You have a great attitude and that is half the battle.

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  10. I love the sound of your aura friend--that's so cool! I hope Cheri22 is right for you!!

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