Wednesday, April 4, 2012


There is this ball of something cold, heavy and about the size of a softball that is sitting right below my ribcage.

It has been there almost a full week now. It grumbles like I'm hungry but I'm not. At first I thought it was heartburn. It was like I knew something was coming. I don't know if I would call it dread, but it is like I knew that sometime soon I would have pain, I would cry and feel upset. Its like my body said, "here, you can have this spot right here for all that emotion". I literally feel like I could throw up at anytime.

I think it is safe to say I might be back to blogging a bit more. If my emotions are on edge like this too much more, I will be fighting depression again.


  1. :-( I wish I had something to contribute to all your recent posts but I don't feel qualified. But I do care and I hear you and keep blogging if it helps. Long distance crappy cuddles. xxx

  2. I think that's a sign of anxiety or a panic attack. I hope all is alright.