The Proof Is in the Cup

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A week from now we should have an answer. Good or bad, we should know something.

Six months ago the hubby had a Varicocele repair that hopefully improved his swimmers. Before surgery our chance of conception without medical intervention was in the 2 to 3% range. Now after waiting twice as long as is necessary we went this morning and let him have fun the cup. (there really is no nice way to say that). It was a lot easier on him this time around and we both kidded around most of morning and on the way to the clinic. He was just all easy, breezy about it but I on the other hand was a freakin ball of nerves. My heart was racing, I kept having to take deep breaths and at a bit of the drive I felt nauseous. Thankfully most of that passed once we left the clinic but I’m still a bit on edge.

I am fearful that the surgery did not help and that are options are going to stay limited. I kept running figures through my head and wondering what we can really afford to do right now if this is unsuccessful. And after last week being full of really down moments I am trying to push the fears away.

So this afternoon I search for positive updates on varicocele repairs and found some good things out there. One spot said that 40% of the repairs helps and the couple’s were pregnant within 9 months. I am not sure if that number includes IUI or IVF but that’s still a pretty good amount. Even if that is inflated or wildly inaccurate I’m going to being positive and hope for the best. For the past three months I have tried to be optimist and I think I can hold out for another week. I know I can.

I know that regardless of the outcome I can handle this. I can get to the other side of this hill.

And I could not finish up this post without saying a very sweet thank you to all of the ladies that left me comments this past week. I have gone back and read many of them a few times because they really did help me pull out of the funk. It is so hard to turn to a friend that is not in this boat and have understanding, but here each of you have given me support that has made such a difference. I honestly believe that if I did not blog and have this connection I would be in a depression right now.