Friday, June 24, 2011

If My Mood Was Anymore Foul I Would Stink

CD 6

To say I’m in a bad mood right now is such an understatement it is laughable. I literately want to hiss at people if they look at me took long. Of course with today being Friday everyone is all chirpy and loud. I want to stand up so bad right now and tell everyone to shut up. I want to seriously hurt someone just to make myself feel better. I am wound up so tight right now I feel like I could break into a million pieces. I am on such a thin line between crying and screaming. Even now, while typing I’m going back and forth between angry and crying. This is just not ok. If this day does not improve I might have to ask to go home.

We have been waiting to hear the results of the last SA since Tuesday. Tuesday I called and the results were in but the nurse said the doctor was out and we had to wait. So we waited until he was back yesterday. I called yesterday morning to get the results and the nurse tells me he has not had time to look at them and that he will get to it and they will call me back that day. So I waited until almost four o’clock and call them back (mainly from fear that the closed at four) and again the answer is not yet, he has not had time. But the nurse, who btw has the personality of a ugly bug and you can hear in her voice how little she cares, says she will call back today. So we wait some more. Then at bit before five I get a call from them that hangs up as soon as I answer. Ok, so I wait another minute…..no call back, no message. Great, is that how they are going to do this? Call me back, not talk and then leave the office? I try to call back and am put on hold for nearly five minutes. The nurse sounds annoyed when she answers and tells me she called my husband and told him that the doctor had to leave early and they would have to call us in the morning. Are you freaking kidding me!?!

~Why did you call my husband when I am the one that has been calling you for the results? I honestly took that as an insult that she did not want to talk to me because I have been bothering them. And yes I do feel as though I was bothering them.

~Why, why, WHY could he not take two damn minutes to view the flipping results throughout the day, or maybe, just maybe before he left? I know it’s a urology office and most of the calls there are more than like not too urgent, but to me this one sure is. All the doctor is going to do is look at them and go “ok, you can call them now.” And the nurse will still be the one we hear from.


This morning I woke up and feel anxious and my stomach is upset. On my way into work I decide to stop at McDonalds and get a coffee drink. I do not think I would eat anything right now and maybe I can stomach just a coffee. Long story short on this part – I had a free drink coupon and the store refused it. I left with no drink and pissed off as could be. I called to ask why and the manager who denied it was hard to understand because and did not make any sense. She kept saying something about the owner and when I asked who that was her answer was Mr. MD. Yeah she said that. I would much rather her have been honest and say she could not tell me or maybe to call back later on in the day to speak to someone else. But no, the answer I got was a smart ass and just made me even madder. I called corporate and that did not get anywhere. I really did not need this kind of stupidity on top of my mood.

So now, I’m at work and waiting. I fully expect them to call my husband instead of me and I know this will upset me but I can not do anything about it. The lovely bit there is that my husband will be on the bush-hog most of the morning today and will not be able to hear his phone. So that will lead to even more waiting. The anger I have towards this is amazing and I have no where to displace these feelings. So I quietly leave the house and plan on just being quite and waiting.

I’m on the verge of crying every flipping two seconds. I just want to be alone right now and be pitiful and dwell. My hope and positivity was used up earlier this week. I actually spent most of the morning thinking about calling my doctor about considering an anti-D medication. I should be able to control these feelings more and not feel like I am about to lose it.

11 comments:

  1. Oh my goodness, I'm so sorry!! That is just CRAPPY of the dr's office to treat you that way. I understand your frustration :(

    I hope you hear something SOON, and I hope your weekend is better than today!

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  2. Waiting on that kind of information can be so frustrating. I had to call multiple times to get my hubby's results too - although the nurse at my office sounds like she was much more understanding that yours is. Why would she calls your husband instead of you? That's just annoying! Crossing my fingers that you get good news.

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  3. I'm sorry! It sounds like it has been a hard couple of days. Waiting on this type of news is so frustrating, hopefully you will hear something soon.
    Praying for good news!

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  4. I'm so sorry. That's incredibly frustrating. It makes no sense for them not to call you. I received ALL of the phone calls about my husband's SA results. Ridiculous. Hoping you hear something soon about the results, and crossing my fingers for good news!

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  5. Wow, I am so sorry to hear you're having such a rough day. Sounds like that doctor's office is reeeaallly unprofessional, not to mention disrespectful and totally uncaring, which I know has got to make the waiting worse on you. So sorry, hon. :( To them it is just a job, something they have to do, but to you it is important and concerns your future and happiness; you would think they could show a little sensitivity to that, geez! Anyway, I really hope this day gets better for you and that when you do finally get the results it is the good news you've waited for.

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  6. I feel like my doc is like that too. Last time around they forgot to call me with the results of my bfn... this time I had to call them for four days to get them to order meds! THIS is just one of many reasons why I want to be a fertility nurse- cuz I can totally understand where everyone is coming from!

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  7. What a horrible experience. I think things can often become so routine to them - they forget that these are life changing results for us. Thinking of you -

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  8. Aw hun that just sucks. Sending you big hugs from ole NZ. I'd imagine by now you've finished work for the day and most likely (I hope!) have finally had the results which I hope were better than the mission it took to get them. Take care my girl...thinking of you as always.

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  9. It is the same over here. The tests are run under his name so he is provided with the results. Part of that whole doctor-patient confidentiality thing. When I requested DH's results be sent to us they were address to him even though I was the patient so to speak. My first FS was the same with looking at results before release but credit them one thing they still rang back if they said they would. I also despise haughty receptionists who act like the gate keeper to contact with the doctor. All reasons why I ditched and changed guys. Obviously not so easy for you guys to do in this case. After all this running around, I hope you got some good news. Xxx

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  10. Sending you massive hugs from across the seas. I am sorry you are having such a miserable day. I cannot believe how slack the doctor has been..I was shaking my head at him while reading your post. I hope the rest of the day was bearable and you got the results..hoping to hear some good news from you. xx

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  11. UGH!! What a terrible time! I was in the worst mood all last week. I hope things start looking up for you! HUGS!

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