Well the little stick guys worked hard this last week or so, but alas they did were not able to fulfill a better purpose.
First let me say how nice everyone was over the weekend. I've gotten some really lovely comments wish us luck and holding out hope. It really is nice to have a little cheering crowd and to know I am doing the same for so many others.
I started spotting on Saturday (CD 40) and yesterday the full wave kicked in. A bit of TMI here but this is like the heaviest flow I have had in a very long time and very clotty. (*blush* - well, hello there ICLW visitors). This kind of AF really makes me nervous – like was this cycle almost successful? Was my body trying to do its thing but gave up too quickly? Could there have been implantation and then failure?
This cycle has really been a doozy for me. I’ve not been stressed and really I’ve tried to be all positive but it was the longest cycle yet and just left me confused. I don’t feel like Clomid did anything and I’m not even sure I OVed. I didn’t have the hotflashes that normally kicks in with Clomid. I did not have any crazy symptoms but he last week or so I had did odd pulling and slight cramping feelings across my belly. In all honesty I thought there was a really good chance we had beaten the odds. Guess not this time.
So now its time to move on.
I feel like we have to get some more answers now. I am scared to know but I think its time.
So today I’m going to start calling around and schedule another swimmer test.
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